you you you

i dont know how far this feeling . but i know.
i know when i look at your eyes.
i know when you hug me and tell me everything is okay
i know when you hold my hand and i feel save
i know when you try your best for my business
i know when i feel you at my heart
i know i'm in love. again and again.
with you.
and want to spend all of my time just with you.

its you. just you. and always you
that stuck in my heart
:)

singing

Kita berdua hanya berpegangan tangan
Tak perlu berpelukan
Kita berdua hanya saling bercerita
Tak perlu memuji

Kita berdua tak pernah ucapkan maaf
Tapi saling mengerti
Kita berdua tak hanya menjalani cinta
Tapi menghidupi

Ketika rindu, menggebu gebu, kita menunggu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja
Saat cemburu, kian membelenggu, cepat berlalu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

Jika jatuh cinta itu buta
Berdua kita akan tersesat
Saling mencari di dalam gelap
Kedua mata kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap
Hati kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap

efek rumah kaca- jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

yeah, jatuh cinta itu... biasa saja ...

cinderella

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free


cinderella . tata young .

this song just stuck in my head. Well, its not just about waiting and waiting someone.
But our effort to get what we want, and then let the hand's of God makes it happen, our just wait the other miracles.

Thanks God i have You .
:)

the long way home

When i kids, i have a perfect dream of love, a fantastic and romantic love story likes Snow white , Romeo n Juliet, and every night my dad always tell me one story about life and love.  When i grow up, i forgot to be realistic.  Its not yet a fairytale.  Now i must finding love by myself.  I remember my dad said, There's no such a thing like a perfect love if you don't make it happen. You must go for it.  Yeah, everything haves a prices.  Something that precious demands you let something precious too. 

 

my confession

Your smile brings light into my days
The tought of you, warms my night
To hold you in my arms, 
Even in my dreams it feels so right
Loving you... 

You never see the way I look into your eyes
You never realize the love I feel inside. . .
Pain and sorrow that haunted me, 
Cause words I've left unsaid

Now you found someone else to love
Deep in my heart, my love won't fade away
To hold you in my arms
Even in my dreams it feels so right loving you

You never see the way I look into your Eyes
You never realize the love I feel Inside
Pain and sorrow that haunted me, 
Cause words I've left unsaid

You never see the way I look into your Eyes
You never realize the love I feel Inside. .
Pain and sorrow that haunted me, 
Cause words I've left unsaid to you...

afghan. my confession.

it just our fate.

face it with smiling.

and move forward .

be tough, girl.

:)

romantic day !

di celah pikiranmu+

Adakahku berada di celah pikiranmu
permisi masuk menjelajahi pikiran liarmu+
tersisakah sejengkal ruang untukku

tak mampu lagi aku mengerang
sudah terremukkan habis
pergi tersesat,
terhambur memuai udara
puluhan purnama tlah engkau denganku
adakah kusesali waktu
jika ku tamak
ingin memilikimu
mencintaimu lebih lama lagi

***

love is a lie, or you ARe?

this saturday night. I see him. With another f*c*ing B*tch. (:
you may say anything. you may say you love me.
But i realize one thing. I can't change the fact.
Please. Stop it . . .

Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
Sold nine million.

I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gonna work harder
I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'
I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gonna work harder
I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'

"Destiny child.Survivor"

And now i know. I will survive from this.
I can make my life better without you (:

i love when i'm falling in love

~Oww MY GOOD`!!!... I love this feeling* The feelings when you look someone and your heart feel beaten'. I love when i'm falling in love. Smile and smile for a whole day. He's turn on my mood. World seem okay. No worry about. With him is just great and wow. Grin and grin. Whoa. I look at this guy and feel "I like this guy" and i will always smile even for a silly things. Haha. Falling love is make me silly. But i love when i'm falling in love. It just feel up my energy at the bored time i must go. With *him*, all of the worlds seems brighter and i just can't take my eyes on him. My love is always be a silly one. No doubt it just a short term flirt and lust. Haha. I always enjoy it. *dance* and ^wink^.

<3

XoxO.

hey, lover

my fav quote today:

Look, dear...
If you want to go, go . If you don't, don't .
I can't tell you who to be with.

"dan humprey, gossip girl"

Yes .You are so precious. But i can't push you to love me like i am. Its all about your choice. I'm though. And I just want you to feel the happiness like me when i'm beside you. I care. Really care about you. So it doesn't really matter, dear.

:)

ps. i love you

Look into my eyes, and find yourself there.
Look into my faces, and see your happiness there.
Hear into my breath and see your name there.
Find into my heart and see your heart's pieces there...

can't you see?
but you just walkaway. Nobody can crush into you like me.
But i must let you go. Let you go.

i can't blame that time i find you
i can't blame that situation
i can't blame that memories you left behind
i can't blame the fact that is too late to know

sincerely.
i never want you go.

but can i love you perfectly?

for all the things you have.
for all the things that you make i miss you.

can i find you again, in my life?
and start all from the beginning?
since we meet like the first time?

p.s i love you

a*

one little hope

if i can see the fallen star,.
i wish...

that i can meet you again in my life.
i can change the time when i meet you,
and change everything.
that i can tell you what i feeling in the deepest of my heart
that i will never ignore you and make you beside
that i will never let you go.
never let you go...

but can i make the situation change?

a secret little affair

*picture from here*

Entah ini nyata atau tidak. Benar atau tidak benar. Aku tidak tahu. Yang aku tahu dengan pasti hanya satu hal. Tentang dirinya. Tentang bagaimana diriku saat bersamanya. Kebenaran selalu mengusik. Kadang memaksaku untuk melanggar apa yang bernama akal sehat dan berdengung mengusikku. Menyuruhku menghentikan ini semua. Tapi aku tidak bisa. Tidak pernah mampu mengungguli apa yang telah Dia rencanakan. Apapun itu. Katakanlah semuanya akan tersia-sia pada akhirnya. Lantas, lalu apa yang akan kutuju pada akhirnya? Tidak ada. Karena aku tidak akan pernah kemana-mana tanpanya. Karena apa yang kurasa adalah hanya untuknya. Aku menutup mataku, menutup telingaku, menutup logikaku. Dan aku menatap wajahnya sekali lagi. Merasakan kebahagiaan yang melimpah ruah.

Mengabaikan ragu yang berdengung menguasai kepala. Yang jelas, aku tahu. Aku bahagia. Tidak pernah mau perduli apa yang pernah dia lakukan sebelumnya, apa yang pernah dia lakukan saat di tempat lain. Aku tidak perduli selama dia masih ada disini. Mau memberikan apa yang kuinginkan. Melayani hatiku. Tersenyum untukku. Mendengar keluh kesahku. Mengkhawatirkan apa yang aku lakukan. Menjagaku dari orang lain. Membelaku kala kuingin dibela. Melindungiku saat aku merasa lemah. Memberikanku sebuah senyuman manis saat aku ingin dihibur. Memberikanku pelukan hangat saatku merasa hancur.

Itu semua sudah cukup. Cukup untuk sebuah alasan. Cukup untuk membuktikan engkau nyata. Kasihmu nyata saat kau berada di sisiku. Aku tak perduli tentang yang lainnya lagi Selama kau masih berada di sampingku. Menjadi apa yang kubutuhkan saat ini. Cukuplah. Tak perlulah aku tahu apa yang dia lakukan saat tak sedang bersamaku. Karena apa yang dia lakukan selama ini. Lebih. Lebih dari cukup untuk sekali saja. Sekali saja membuatku merasakan. Merasakan bahagia. Bahagia karena bisa bersamanya.

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile

When I find you
It'll be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Where you are is where I want to be next to you...
and you next to me...I need to find you...

You're the voice I hear inside my head,the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you . . . I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you . . . I gotta find you . . .

(gotta find you-demi lovato)

me, you and a complicated love

i know i wrong. i ever dissipate you and make this thing complicated. I make you feel like discard and ignored you. Thats wrong. I love you very much. Dont you see it in my face?.

"Salahku a*. salahkulah dulu tidak menjagamu baik-baik.
Salahkulah yang tidak gigih memperjuangkanmu.
salahkulah yang lantas menyia-nyiakan dan melepaskanmu.
dan lihatlah apa yang aku dapatkan.
Tiba-tiba menyadari sesuatu yang berharga yang pernah kulepaskan.
Salahkulah. Mencintaimu.
Dan sialnya, kini kau memiliki orang lain.
orang yang mampu memberimu sesuatu yang kau inginkan.
orang yang mampu memberikan apa yang tidak aku berikan
apakah kau sungguh mencintainya?
kau pernah bilang kau sungguh mencintaiku.
hanya sampai aksarakah rasamu karena kau tidak kembali kesini untuk memperjuangkannya bersamaku?
Sesedikit itukah rasamu hingga ketika aku berpaling sejenak dan engkau telah meninggalkanku begitu jauh?
aku tidak tahu apakah aku benar-benar mencintaimu.
bisa memberikan cinta yang besar untukmu
tapi satu hal yang aku tahu pasti

senja menghitam dan aku mendapati diriku memikirkanmu
senja menghitam dan tiba-tiba saja kucari dirimu di sudut-sudut mataku

katakan aku bodoh dan tak berfikir
karena ya.
aku bodoh karena bisa-bisanya
membuatmu masuk dan mengacaukan segalanya.
tapi aku tidak pernah menyesal
atas setiap detik waktu yang pernah kau habiskan bersamaku
atas setiap senyuman yang tak mampu lagi kuhitung saat kau membuatku tertawa
karena entahlah, kurasa cinta bagiku hanya begitulah adanya.

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hey, hey...Tiba-tiba teringat kau, A*. Kau tau? aku selalu ingat . . .

xoxo

*picture here*

are you have been kissed when you at senior high school? actually, i'm never been kissed yet. And i'm little proud of it. Most of my friend already do it when junior high school. Not with me, i ever have some boyfriends, but i think that isn't something you can do with someone who you think not 'the one'. Maybe it can be too late. But i still wait for a perfect time. a perfect man. Hey, i just seventeen.
Its not means i never falling love with someone. I make a relationship more than once. But i think i ever real in love once. With my first love, first sight, even not first boyfriend. Him. I just feel comfortable, safe with him. Well, long time we are separate and not close anymore. It sometime makes me hurt. Because i know the truth. And must face a hard way between that. Fate. And i can't win from fate. I can't. We just... can't be together...
Its hurt, but i never regret for all the times i spent with him. Just so precious and meaningful to me...

Thanks a*, for all love you ever give, all the way you ever think that you love me,and for all the times i thinking about you and realize that i missed you so much...

xoxo

friend

*myself, mey, ulant*

well. i have some vacation last holiday with half of my classmates, rent a little bus and go to pasir panjang beach. Not a suprising vacation, anyway because i think pasir panjang is the one and only the purpose for the local's tourist like us. So, i almost here since i was kid. It spent four until five hour, even your bus driver was drive like fly. Eurgh, i have a little problem with bus. At bus i will smell like a vomit and i will sick if i smell it, so it turn my mood into a bad level what makes me anti-social or something like it even i don't mean so. Its so hurrible. But. anyway thanks for all my friend who i think can understand me. And finally i can enjoy my vacation so. Thanks for all my beloved friends, who always supported me when i sad or down...

*especially ^existrasist, well, i dont mean to make some gap or something like that, just i feel more close with all my friends here and can support me whatever i am... Big Thanks, not for existrasist. But for every people that ever being my friend. >.< XoxO