2011

and at my spare time, i do my own project to makes my own journal at bahasa that contain what i do at my time when i'm not doing some paper or study for my college.
i just want to explore my capability to write at my journal that i will post almost everyday when i'm not at a busy schedule. Train to write write write, speak my word to the world. :)

www.arinajournal.wordpress.com

2011

This is my first post at 2011 at my site again. :)
Sekarang saya sudah di semester ketiga dan banyak hal sudah terjadi yang saya harap dapat terus memberikan kesempatan saya untuk terus berkembang menjalani kehidupan.
Hmm resolusi awal tahun tentunya sudah dirancang sedemikian rupa untuk memacu melakukan dan mempersembahkan yang terbaik bagi kehidupan, dengan berkaca kepada permasalahan dan kendala yang dihadapi pada tahun yang lalu, agar tidak dapat terulang kembali karena sudah pernah dialami sehingga diharapkan dapat diatasi dengan baik.
Happy new year, new life, new motivation and passion to feelin' alive !!!

some way to think ...

Betapa besarnya nilai uang kertas senilai Rp.100.000apabila dibawa ke masjid untuk disumbangkan, tetapi betapa kecilnya kalau dibawa ke Mall untuk dibelanjakan!
Betapa lamanya melayani Allah selama limabelas menit, namun betapa singkatnya kalau kita melihat film.
Betapa sulitnya untuk mencari kata-kata ketika berdoa (spontan) namun betapa mudahnya kalau mengobrol atau bergosip dengan pacar / teman tanpa harus berpikir panjang-panjang.
Betapa asyiknya apabila pertandinganbola diperpanjang waktunya ekstra namun kita mengeluh ketika khotbah di masjid lebih lama sedikit daripada biasa.
Betapa sulitnya untuk membaca satu lembarAl-qur' an tapi betapa mudahnya membaca 100halaman dari novel yang laris.
Betapa getolnya orang untuk duduk di depandalam pertandingan atau konser namun lebih senang berada di saf paling belakang ketika berada di Masjid.
Betapa Mudahnya membuat 40 tahun dosa demi memuaskan nafsu birahi semata, namun alangkah sulitnya ketika menahan nafsu selama30 hari ketika berpuasa.
Betapa sulitnya untuk menyediakan waktu untuk sholat 5 waktu, namun betapa mudahnya menyesuaikan waktu dalam sekejap pada saat terakhir untuk event yang menyenangkan.
Betapa sulitnyauntuk mempelajari arti yangterkandung di dalam al qur'an, namun betapa mudahnya untuk mengulang-ulangi gosip yang sama kepada orang lain.
Betapa mudahnya kita mempercayai apa yang dikatakan oleh koran namun betapa kita meragukan apa yang dikatakan oleh Kitab Suci AlQuran.
Betapa Takutnya kita apabila dipanggil Boss dan cepat-cepat menghadapnya namun betapa kita berani dan lamanya untuk menghadapNya saat kumandang azan menggema.
Betapa setiap orang ingin masuk surga seandainya tidak perlu untuk percaya atau berpikir, atau mengatakan apa-apa,atauberbuat apa-apa.
Betapa kita dapat menyebarkan seribu lelucon melalui e-mail, dan menyebar luaskannya dengan FORWARD seperti api namun kalau ada mail yang isinya tentang Kerajaan Allah betapa seringnya kita ragu-ragu, enggan membukanyadan mensharingkannya, serta langsung klik pada icon DELETE.
ANDA TERTAWA ...? atau ANDA BERPIKIR-PIKIR. ..?
bersyukurlah kepada ALLAH, YANG MAHA BAIK,PENGASIH DAN PENYAYANG.

a nice post from http://bizzares.blogspot.com/2008/08/semenit-saja.html

quickiy post

this two weeks-holiday would be end. and i will to this regulary things again at my college~ i know thing would going hard there. But i just here to make sure that i will pass anything ! because i believe that my self would be finish that season of college as a winner with my self. to win from my self.

this saturday night.
he asking me some serious question that.
am i would feel disgust if i will take care of him when he got sick or whatever.
am i would be stay with him, taking care of him when he got some serious sick.
cant even i'm not avoid him and neglect him.
i know. i always being selfish or something bad .
i admit that i'm not one hundred percent have a good character.
but,still . i try the best for you.
and now, you are the best i ever had .

with love.

photo from tumblr.com

:)

you are the sunshine that i want to see when i open my eyes
the sunset i want to see when i want to sleep.
you are the bless from God.
another proof of God that love still exist.
love can make me as human being feeling sad also happy
that love that can make me weak
love can make me strong
love can make me. find my home.
love can make me. find my way to You.

i know about how we feel to each other. But, still. for every argue we done, for every hate we made, for every bad things we say. we know we'r in crush with each other.
:)
and i dream to be with you. we built our dream.
please always stay with me.

<3

you you you

i dont know how far this feeling . but i know.
i know when i look at your eyes.
i know when you hug me and tell me everything is okay
i know when you hold my hand and i feel save
i know when you try your best for my business
i know when i feel you at my heart
i know i'm in love. again and again.
with you.
and want to spend all of my time just with you.

its you. just you. and always you
that stuck in my heart
:)

beginning beginning

well, this is my new post after i through my busy time at my first year academy. Now i'll pass the first year and i hope things going better. Many things happen in one year. some good . some bad. but i sure i will passed it beautifully if i can find the lesson from there to make me more wiser at this life. I sure all of this is just some of the natural process that i mmust through at this life. No complaint just enjoy please !

someday ...

90 miles outside chicago
Cant stop driving
I dont know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later
Youre still on my mind
Whatever happened to emilia earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the titanic cry

Someday well know
If love can move a mountain
Someday well know
Why the sky is blue
Someday well know
Why I wasnt meant for you
Does anybody know the way to atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
Im speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time tonight

Someday well know
Why samson loved delilah
One day Ill go
Dancing on the moon
Someday youll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why arent you here with me?

Someday well know
Why sampson loved delilah
One day Ill go
Dancing on the moon
Someday youll know
That I was the one for you

seeing you in february was great
Cliches eventually all come true
Time heals all wounds
I went to get us our 9th drink
And you ran out the door with another guy
I woke up on the floor with my shoes on
A smile on my face and I didnt even care

*someday we'll know . new radical

:)

love my family . <3

minal aidzin wal faidzin .

have a great idul fitri !!! :)

family time was amazing . i love my family, even now i just have limited time to spend with them, but i always be grateful to God for giving me fantastic family.
and i swear i will do my best for make them happy . :)

picture

Well, i through this two weeks and find something interesting . a fake .
That someone's life could be so tricky and have a plot that they planned .
i know a few of people have a big desire for getting something like having a power, getting some good position or getting some good place . all i know that people can be so hypocrite and two-faced . and sometimes the ego can makes themself kick their friend's face for make themself have a good image. Hmm. Life needs a plot, thats right, a plot and strategy to make us still alive and keep the sane .

happy last fasting day !

welcome the day of purity, Lebaran day .
lets planned something good for our life !!!

cheers .

framing .

webcam's and photoshop always can makes me stop thinking about one fresh ice tea, and voila !!! beduggg maghrib !!! hehehe .

happy fasting day 2009

xoxo

kembali untukmu .

Terjaga ku diujung pagi
Bawa ku nikmati indah duniawi
Sendiri bertanya dihati
Akankah semuanya akan abadi

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

Ku yakini nikmat yang Kau beri
Segalanya pada-Mu ‘kan kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

*kotak .


kadangkala . rasanya susah luar biasa untuk bersyukur . kadang juga capek. secapek-capeknya fisik, rasa-rasanya masih bisa ditahan . tapi kalau sudah capek hati... Entahlah .
Kadang-kadang rasanya begitu memicu rasa marah, jika marah saja masih bisa tertahankan, tapi jika marah itu bercampur dengan kesedihan yang luar biasa mendalam.
Entahlah, mungkin masih harus ada evaluasi ulang, memperbaiki semuanya .
semoga, di bulan puasa ini . Semuanya bisa jadi lebih baik .

Bulan dimana harus belajar, menahan dalam-dalam emosi .
Bukan kemarahan yang harus dipendam dan menanamkan kebencian itu lebih dalam, tapi bagaimana bisa merubahnya menjadi ikhlas, belajar membuka hati. Menerima hidup lebih apa adanya. Tanpa pretensi yang berlebih, tidak menuntut banyak, selalu bersyukur, belajar menjadi yang lebih baik .

Happy Fasting day 2009 .

hip hip hoorayy !

holiday just for a weeks !!! :) i know, noone says this gonna be easy . but hey , i will survive, through that all with focus with my target and do it all with a happiness.
just enjoy it all. Do your best . and everything gonna be alright . i believe wherever i am, i will saving by my saviour. my Lord Allah SWT , because i always can count on You, my beloved God .

:)

unforgettable 2 weeks .

Well, last 2 weeks i go to singkawang at secata B to follow the basic training of dicipline . Hmm at first i just feel down and not really enthusiastic with that dicipline's. But time by time, i get a precious lesson there for manage time, for doing the important and basic thing first. Without handphone, internet or even communicate with family. I learn how to focus, about the military that understate everyone there as a big family, and pass all together, happy or sad .
I got many new friends that so kind and have a different characters that makes me more and more learn to have extra patience, extra heart to received any condition with all of my friend, the unconditional love. Happy and Sad, i sure i can through it all .
:)

at end of this month i will go again, to follow the new life at my new college. I just hope i can study seriously to reaching all of my dreams then. Well, my only hope is just for getting success for myself and can makes my family proud and happy with me. And can be the independent woman that can makes my family happy and getting wealth .
ameen .

go go girls !

:)

i will survive, yeah !!!

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how youd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

And so youre back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If Id have known for just one second
Youd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
Im trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And youll see me with somebody new.
Im not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought youd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now Im saving all my lovin
For someone whos lovin me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

bigbro .

Just kill-time for holiday, my brother's picture!
I just love him so much ! *kiss kiss* >.<'
*nge-edit ini apa gara" liat berita noordin m top ? weh. i hope he will not disturb our life and our country with bomb anymore*

peace ! :)