Saturday, August 29, 2009

framing .



webcam's and photoshop always can makes me stop thinking about one fresh ice tea, and voila !!! beduggg maghrib !!! hehehe .

happy fasting day 2009

xoxo

Thursday, August 27, 2009

kembali untukmu .

Terjaga ku diujung pagi
Bawa ku nikmati indah duniawi
Sendiri bertanya dihati
Akankah semuanya akan abadi

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

Ku yakini nikmat yang Kau beri
Segalanya pada-Mu ‘kan kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

*kotak .


kadangkala . rasanya susah luar biasa untuk bersyukur . kadang juga capek. secapek-capeknya fisik, rasa-rasanya masih bisa ditahan . tapi kalau sudah capek hati... Entahlah .
Kadang-kadang rasanya begitu memicu rasa marah, jika marah saja masih bisa tertahankan, tapi jika marah itu bercampur dengan kesedihan yang luar biasa mendalam.
Entahlah, mungkin masih harus ada evaluasi ulang, memperbaiki semuanya .
semoga, di bulan puasa ini . Semuanya bisa jadi lebih baik .

Bulan dimana harus belajar, menahan dalam-dalam emosi .
Bukan kemarahan yang harus dipendam dan menanamkan kebencian itu lebih dalam, tapi bagaimana bisa merubahnya menjadi ikhlas, belajar membuka hati. Menerima hidup lebih apa adanya. Tanpa pretensi yang berlebih, tidak menuntut banyak, selalu bersyukur, belajar menjadi yang lebih baik .

Happy Fasting day 2009 .

hip hip hoorayy !





holiday just for a weeks !!! :) i know, noone says this gonna be easy . but hey , i will survive, through that all with focus with my target and do it all with a happiness.
just enjoy it all. Do your best . and everything gonna be alright . i believe wherever i am, i will saving by my saviour. my Lord Allah SWT , because i always can count on You, my beloved God .

:)

unforgettable 2 weeks .

Well, last 2 weeks i go to singkawang at secata B to follow the basic training of dicipline . Hmm at first i just feel down and not really enthusiastic with that dicipline's. But time by time, i get a precious lesson there for manage time, for doing the important and basic thing first. Without handphone, internet or even communicate with family. I learn how to focus, about the military that understate everyone there as a big family, and pass all together, happy or sad .
I got many new friends that so kind and have a different characters that makes me more and more learn to have extra patience, extra heart to received any condition with all of my friend, the unconditional love. Happy and Sad, i sure i can through it all .
:)

at end of this month i will go again, to follow the new life at my new college. I just hope i can study seriously to reaching all of my dreams then. Well, my only hope is just for getting success for myself and can makes my family proud and happy with me. And can be the independent woman that can makes my family happy and getting wealth .
ameen .

go go girls !

:)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

i will survive, yeah !!!

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how youd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

And so youre back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If Id have known for just one second
Youd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
Im trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And youll see me with somebody new.
Im not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought youd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now Im saving all my lovin
For someone whos lovin me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

bigbro .



Just kill-time for holiday, my brother's picture!
I just love him so much ! *kiss kiss* >.<'
*nge-edit ini apa gara" liat berita noordin m top ? weh. i hope he will not disturb our life and our country with bomb anymore*

peace ! :)

Friday, August 7, 2009

giggle



Sometimes i just don't care about anything. Really, i don't care. I just enjoy it all. Close my eyes and being happy alone. LOL . Sometimes i don't really need a friend, even a boyfriend if they asking too much. -.- . You know, i don't really like to spend my time to keep busy with that thing. I have a Big dreams to achieve and i want to getting success when i still young and still have a power to enjoying the successfull. LOL . Lets hope the best. :)

L O S T

Aku lemas
Tapi berdaya
Aku tidak sambat rasa sakit
atau gatal

Aku pengin makan tajin
Aku tidak pernah sesak nafas
Tapi tubuhku tidak memuaskan
untuk punya posisi yang ideal dan wajar

Aku pengin membersihkan tubuhku
dari racun kimiawi

Aku ingin kembali pada jalan alam
Aku ingin meningkatkan pengabdian
kepada Allah

Tuhan, aku cinta padamu


(WS RENDRA)

Well, sometimes i think about death. A little afraid.
But i more afraid if lost someone i care about, people i loved.

cheers .

Sunday, August 2, 2009

say cheese !

my captured today . yeyy .



-if you can't shoot just click-
:myself with the mirror :):





-Headbang our world-
:my friend mayy: