2011

and at my spare time, i do my own project to makes my own journal at bahasa that contain what i do at my time when i'm not doing some paper or study for my college.
i just want to explore my capability to write at my journal that i will post almost everyday when i'm not at a busy schedule. Train to write write write, speak my word to the world. :)

www.arinajournal.wordpress.com

unforgettable 2 weeks .

Well, last 2 weeks i go to singkawang at secata B to follow the basic training of dicipline . Hmm at first i just feel down and not really enthusiastic with that dicipline's. But time by time, i get a precious lesson there for manage time, for doing the important and basic thing first. Without handphone, internet or even communicate with family. I learn how to focus, about the military that understate everyone there as a big family, and pass all together, happy or sad .
I got many new friends that so kind and have a different characters that makes me more and more learn to have extra patience, extra heart to received any condition with all of my friend, the unconditional love. Happy and Sad, i sure i can through it all .
:)

at end of this month i will go again, to follow the new life at my new college. I just hope i can study seriously to reaching all of my dreams then. Well, my only hope is just for getting success for myself and can makes my family proud and happy with me. And can be the independent woman that can makes my family happy and getting wealth .
ameen .

go go girls !

:)

giggle

Sometimes i just don't care about anything. Really, i don't care. I just enjoy it all. Close my eyes and being happy alone. LOL . Sometimes i don't really need a friend, even a boyfriend if they asking too much. -.- . You know, i don't really like to spend my time to keep busy with that thing. I have a Big dreams to achieve and i want to getting success when i still young and still have a power to enjoying the successfull. LOL . Lets hope the best. :)

a life, huh ?

well, i’m not a complained that always argue, asking and pushing someone to do something. I’m not an anarchy person that will be so angry and put a gun. I’m not an emo that may feeling so mellow and feel down. I’m just an ordinary human that also have a limit. Just have a little strength to through all of this.

This is a way out to makes myself feel free. I don’t know. Like Lenka’s said, “i’m just a little girl caught in the middle, life is a maze, and love is a riddle”

and like baldybodhi saids : BORN, CONSUME,MATES AND DIE. A holly circle. For a God’s sake. I just need a peace, a save-place where i can spend all my hobby and makes my dream getting real. Even i still don't know what i'm looking for. But, is that the point we are still have life, isn't it ? If we can find and can finish our job in this world, then isn't it means we are dead enough ? Well, I just need more strength to through this. But in my deepest heart...
I sure i can through this.
Well, keep motivated.

cheers up !

ckckck, boys !

ckckck
boys !
why sometimes they just screw up our mind.
i watched transformers 2 at xxi last saturday
and melt,
i means REALLY melting seeing Josh Duhamel.
What a @#$%, LOL .
i hope i can find hmm,
similar guy like that and can make him mine ! =P
but i think i almost find it.

not sooo similar. but i think. i got crush !
d*mn, recently i just got a crush and crush,
i crush into somebody, and maybe tomorrow
the boy will be someones different.
LOL . I think i want to stop feel this silly feeling.
or i just want to enjoy it.
but i think i can hurt people's feeling with what i do *evilgrin*

hey, i am single!
and i have a choice !
then, before i have "a relationship state"
am i do wrong if i just selected and see ...

but at least i know that boy must makes me melting like Josh Duhamel !
OMG . He's so hot ! LOL

goodnight...

aku benci
ketika aku menjadi orang
yang membuat senyummu tak ada lagi
aku membenci diriku sendiri
ketika aku membuat keputusan
yang aku pun tak tau benar atau salah

aku benci
ketika aku harus merasa bersalah
dengan apa
yang aku bahkan tak tahu
menyakitimu atau tidak

aku benci
ketika tak tahu apa apa
tentang dirimu
bahkan sejak dulu
aku tak pernah benar-benar yakin
tentang apa yang kau rasakan
aku tak mau dengar orang lain
ini tentang kita

dan aku benci ...
sedikit membencimu
ketika kau pergi
seperti ada sesuatu yang hilang

dan bahkan aku tak tahu apa yang telah kau hilangkan
ia memang ada
dia yang...
kurasa lebih mencintaiku
daripada kamu
kamu yang tidak pernah bilang apa-apa
kamu yang tidak pernah
berusaha membuktikan apa-apa

lalu, kenapa 24 jam sehari
aku masih bisa mendengar suara tentang kita ?

p.s :
thank you for
the amazing memories
you bring to my life,
it will last forever,
i swear...