Wednesday, January 28, 2009

quote of the day

meii.edhee.irra.micca.fhila.virra.wulant.me

Narcist time :)

. . . I'm Sexy, I'm Cute. . .
. . .I'm Popular to boot. . .
. . .I'm pitchin' great hair. . .
. . .I'm Wanted. I'm Hot. . .
. . .I'm Everything. . .
. . .I'm Pretty. I'm Cool. . .
. . .and i always can Rocks the school. . .

Hhaha. Lagi pada hobi send-all send-all via sms antar temen2. Gara2 ada promote sms gratis dari salah satu operator kartu. Itu salah satu quote via send-all nyaa. hhihi. Narsis gak ketulungan =P

Monday, January 26, 2009

red is hot

hotred

the super besties


the existrasisters'

karinn. micca. viraa. meii. wulant. iraa. edee'. fhila.

(:

History of existrasis~

Awalnya kita semua temenan gara2 mesti satu kelas n di kelas kita dihuni sebagian besar anak2nya yg gak mau ngebaur n cuma mau temenan sama temen2nya dr kls 1 sm 2 ajah, ckckck. Apalagi, temen2 cow kita yang biasanya biang onar dan sudah teruji kegokilannya terdeteksi di kelas sebelah, nJadiihh konon katanya kelas kita hanya berisi cow2 lucu yang gokilnya terselubung alias diam2 sajahh...wkwkwk. Jadilah, isi kelas seringkali diam tanpa kata dan garing abiss. Berhubung kita cewek2 sering pada gak bisa diam dan gelisah melihat kelas yang adem ayem saja. maka terusiklah nurani kita dengan kondisi diatas dan memutuskan menjadikan tahun2 terakhir di SMA ini rada gila (eloo aja kalii=P) dengan membuat hal-hal gokil bareng, hhihi. Dan pada suatu hari terselenggaralah suatu event yang mengusung lomba supergenk di sekolah kita gituh. Ehh, Terdeklarasikanlah suatu nama yang aneh bin ajaib mbeweleh weleh yang akrab disapa existrasist, yang artinya genk cew2 exist, Ramah dan narSis (ga nyambung?!?) hhihi. Well, sebenernya anggotanya semua cew2 kelas ia1 sihh. Tapi berhubung ada kepentingan lomba gituh diringkaslah dengan yang mau ikut di lomba dan yang cantik naudzubillah saja (yg terakhir boong deng xP). Jadii,tersisalah 8 orang. Yah, dari situlah kita2 lumayan sering ngalor ngidul bareng. Walaupun jaraang banget bisa ngumpulin semuanya coz pada ribet nyatuin orang2 yg konon katanya memiliki jam terbang tinggi (boong bgt, males semua sebenernya) gitu dah. Hihi.

Here they are,..

Micca : besties sebangkuu kuh, berbagi penderitaan barisan depan,hhihi
Vira : Ortu kitah temenann dari kecil, cuman kitanya baru ngomong pas satu esema ajah, si ucuul.
Mei : besties tempat curcol
Wulant : Baru deket pas kls 3 sih. Sering uks bareng.. hhihi
Iraa : Neneekkkuhh tersayangs(:
Ede : Butuh nasehat dan jawaban matematik? :))
Fhila : Masih sepupu, sekelas terus sama dia dr sd, smp smpe sma, 12 tahun! xP

:)

Sunday, January 25, 2009

epi b'day viraa

Fhila, Meii, Me, Vira, Wulant, Irra

*ijhh ijhh belepotan kuehh semua..hhihi*


HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY. Viraa existrasisers~... *muach muach*
The day before i planned a surprised party for my dearest friend, Vira Curut a.ka. Phirud. Hhihi. She is my empacking beEphEph a.k.a f*ck'n best friend forever~ .xP
And i have another surprise to make her surprised too, Ucokk *evil* hhaha. He is a boy that i always joke have a flirt with Vira. And the surprise at my home, *mission success* . *wink*

XoXo

Saturday, January 24, 2009

love is a lie, or you ARe?

this saturday night. I see him. With another f*c*ing B*tch. (:
you may say anything. you may say you love me.
But i realize one thing. I can't change the fact.
Please. Stop it . . .


Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
Sold nine million.

I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gonna work harder

I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'
I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gonna work harder

I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'

"Destiny child.Survivor"

And now i know. I will survive from this.
I can make my life better without you (:

another steps

me and Meidyy@xii science 1

hhaha. Unbelievable!. Saturday night again. One week before my "Try Out" to UAN. Woaah... And Countdown. Two months again i will left my high school and doing something again.
Unspeakable. Finally i think that is High School is not bad. And i'm very thankful that i get existrasist.
Then one thing scary me, the future. it just amazing to doing another step of life. But i must workhard twice again to make all of my dreams come true. Come on, girl...

Monday, January 19, 2009

music on my head

Puisi Cahaya Bulan

(Ost. Gie)

akhirnya semua akan tiba pada suatu hari yg biasa
pada suatu ketika yg telah lama kita ketahui
apakah kau masih sambut dahulu memintaku minum susu
sambil membenarkan letak leher kemejaku

kabut tipis pun turun pelan-pelan di lembah kasih
lembah bandalawangi
kau dan aku tegak berdiri melihat hutan” yg menjadi suram
meresapi belaian angin yg menjadi dingin

apakah kau masih membelaiku semesra dahulu
ketika kudepak, kau dekaplah lebih mesra
lebih dekat

apakau kau masih akan berkata
kudengar dekap jantungmu...
kita begitu berbeda dalam semua
kecuali dalam cinta

cahaya bulan menusukku dengan ribuan pertanyaan
yg takkan pernah aku tahu dimana jawaban itu
bagai letusan berapi bangunkan dari mimpi
sudah waktunya berdiri mencari jawaban kegelisahan hati


Pertama dengar lagunya bingung juga lagu apaan waktu nyasar ke blog orang. Ehh. Ga taunya liriknya jg bagus. Puisi gitu. Menurut aku liriknya gak kacangan dan murahan. Tapi penuh makna. Serasa sastra2 zaman dulu. Kenapa yah, sekarang kok berkurang banget karya sastra yang penuh makna, filosofis dan mendidik. Beberapa macam buku-buku filsafat yang bagus umumnya berasal dari luar negeri. Ehm... Nunggu aku yang nulis juga yah kayaknya.hhehe.

:)
Just playful.


the smarter one

my fav quote today

The most powerful steal it from the weak.

But the SMARTER steal it from the most powerful


"read in The Rule of Four"

I choose the smarter one. Lets rich your head. gals...
:)

Sunday, January 18, 2009

who are you?


You Are a Magician



You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.

You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.

Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.

You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.



Your strength: Your charm



Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics



Your power color: Indigo



Your power symbol: Four leaf clover



Your power month: December


hahha. Iseng2 nyobain quiz disini. Ih ih that is so damn right about me xP.
gak begitu percaya jg sih ttg something like this. i'm sure that i will be the person who's decide who i wannabe. Tapi seru aja ngeliat fakta yang kadang2 waktu dipikir2 lagi. Iya yah, aku tuh kayak gini juga...hihi. Ada beberapa hal yg 'aku' banget dah pokoknya hihi. Just an intermezzo.
:)

Friday, January 16, 2009

i love when i'm falling in love


~Oww MY GOOD`!!!... I love this feeling* The feelings when you look someone and your heart feel beaten'. I love when i'm falling in love. Smile and smile for a whole day. He's turn on my mood. World seem okay. No worry about. With him is just great and wow. Grin and grin. Whoa. I look at this guy and feel "I like this guy" and i will always smile even for a silly things. Haha. Falling love is make me silly. But i love when i'm falling in love. It just feel up my energy at the bored time i must go. With *him*, all of the worlds seems brighter and i just can't take my eyes on him. My love is always be a silly one. No doubt it just a short term flirt and lust. Haha. I always enjoy it. *dance* and ^wink^.

<3

XoxO.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

i will do it




So crazy here. About my life, my little complicated life. But i will work with that. Work with all of my energy. My dream is something precious, and so worth it for do with all of my passion, my desire. I don't wanna make my life wasted and useless. I wanna be more and more proud of myself. And doing something to proof. Proof to myself that i can do that. I will, and I do. And I can do it better. Hey dream, i am on the way.

yes, i will survive.


here is the image <3


Wew. Sometimes, i feel down when what i do mess up. I hate the feeling of powerless.
I know i must be grateful for some reason. But it just. Just make me feel lost.

Huuft. I just think this is enough. I must be strong and hit it back !
It must be fighted. I can't lose anymore.

I must make a strategy for doing that.
Think smart and Stay Focus for what you do.

It doesn't easy. But i know i must survive, and i will.I can face it.
Because God never give us the problem we can't solve. And God is stay with me to face it.
Be more tough, girl. For anything happen. And never give up. Keep fighting.
:)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

hey, lover

my fav quote today:


Look
, dear...
If you want to go, go . If you don't, don't .
I can't tell you who to be with.


"dan humprey, gossip girl"

Yes .You are so precious. But i can't push you to love me like i am. Its all about your choice. I'm though. And I just want you to feel the happiness like me when i'm beside you. I care. Really care about you. So it doesn't really matter, dear.

:)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

ps. i love you


Look into my eyes, and find yourself there.
Look into my faces, and see your happiness there.
Hear into my breath and see your name there.
Find into my heart and see your heart's pieces there...

can't you see?
but you just walkaway. Nobody can crush into you like me.
But i must let you go. Let you go.

i can't blame that time i find you
i can't blame that situation
i can't blame that memories you left behind
i can't blame the fact that is too late to know

sincerely.
i never want you go.

but can i love you perfectly?

for all the things you have.
for all the things that you make i miss you.

can i find you again, in my life?
and start all from the beginning?
since we meet like the first time?

p.s i love you

a*

Monday, January 5, 2009

back to school

*picture from here*


yeah,after 2 weeks holiday. Now i go back to school. Ready for study? ready for full schedule again? not really. A little busy schedule.
School : 7 am until 1.30pm
school's course : 2.30 pm until 4.30pm
course again : 7 pm until 8.30 pm
i will do that for add some lessons to my head. And i hope can get the best at final exam then. Pray and pray!>.<. I know sometimes i became lazy and not attend some schedule. But at this new semester. I hope i have a new spirit for workhard. Do UAS and UAN sounds scary because i think i'm not ready for do that. I hope i can study more at this semester and prepare myself for the future. Well, anything the result, i just can try and try more. And get the passion for doing that.

XoXo

Sunday, January 4, 2009

one little hope


if i can see the fallen star,.
i wish...

that i can meet you again in my life.
i can change the time when i meet you,
and change everything.
that i can tell you what i feeling in the deepest of my heart
that i will never ignore you and make you beside
that i will never let you go.
never let you go...

but can i make the situation change?

Friday, January 2, 2009

little bit of life



sometimes something big just started with a little thing. I know. My life so wasted if i just run into a circle. Even it make a sense and a big meaning. I must learn something. Learn to let it go.
I can't get anything i want in my life. Some mess. Some catch. But never let me fooled by myself, my silly desire to get all. Don't be too obsessed with that. Just focus to your target now. To your life now. Don't look back. I mean, not look back for sorrow, be strong. Try to forgive, but not forget. Learn something and try to understand people. This world not just about your feeling. Try to understand people's heart. What they want. What they feeling. Try to respect yourself, and try more to respect people around us. People who cares about your feeling. Try to thankful and respect them. Little thing but thats so important. I just feel little guilty when i know there is somebody who can loves me, no matter what i do is wrong, no matter that i could be so ungrateful and can't respect them. But they still loves me, cares about me. And i just think about myself, my silly feeling. Love u all.

xOxO

Thursday, January 1, 2009

a secret little affair

*picture from here*


Entah ini nyata atau tidak. Benar atau tidak benar. Aku tidak tahu. Yang aku tahu dengan pasti hanya satu hal. Tentang dirinya. Tentang bagaimana diriku saat bersamanya. Kebenaran selalu mengusik. Kadang memaksaku untuk melanggar apa yang bernama akal sehat dan berdengung mengusikku. Menyuruhku menghentikan ini semua. Tapi aku tidak bisa. Tidak pernah mampu mengungguli apa yang telah Dia rencanakan. Apapun itu. Katakanlah semuanya akan tersia-sia pada akhirnya. Lantas, lalu apa yang akan kutuju pada akhirnya? Tidak ada. Karena aku tidak akan pernah kemana-mana tanpanya. Karena apa yang kurasa adalah hanya untuknya. Aku menutup mataku, menutup telingaku, menutup logikaku. Dan aku menatap wajahnya sekali lagi. Merasakan kebahagiaan yang melimpah ruah.

Mengabaikan ragu yang berdengung menguasai kepala. Yang jelas, aku tahu. Aku bahagia. Tidak pernah mau perduli apa yang pernah dia lakukan sebelumnya, apa yang pernah dia lakukan saat di tempat lain. Aku tidak perduli selama dia masih ada disini. Mau memberikan apa yang kuinginkan. Melayani hatiku. Tersenyum untukku. Mendengar keluh kesahku. Mengkhawatirkan apa yang aku lakukan. Menjagaku dari orang lain. Membelaku kala kuingin dibela. Melindungiku saat aku merasa lemah. Memberikanku sebuah senyuman manis saat aku ingin dihibur. Memberikanku pelukan hangat saatku merasa hancur.

Itu semua sudah cukup. Cukup untuk sebuah alasan. Cukup untuk membuktikan engkau nyata. Kasihmu nyata saat kau berada di sisiku. Aku tak perduli tentang yang lainnya lagi Selama kau masih berada di sampingku. Menjadi apa yang kubutuhkan saat ini. Cukuplah. Tak perlulah aku tahu apa yang dia lakukan saat tak sedang bersamaku. Karena apa yang dia lakukan selama ini. Lebih. Lebih dari cukup untuk sekali saja. Sekali saja membuatku merasakan. Merasakan bahagia. Bahagia karena bisa bersamanya.

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile

When I find you
It'll be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Where you are is where I want to be next to you...
and you next to me...I need to find you...

You're the voice I hear inside my head,the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you . . . I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you . . . I gotta find you . . .

(gotta find you-demi lovato)